It's Not Supposed to Happen This Way...

I am supposed to be punished for acting like a bitch, not rewarded.

So I had a meeting this evening with two of my supervisors from the teaching company.  Tensions at this job escalated last week over a scheduling conflict, culminating in the angry email I sent to my boss three posts ago. 

And so I had to come in for a meeting today. I was not expecting this to be good. 

That in mind, before this meeting I had ardently prepared myself to accept responsibility for my actions (in an all too twelvesteppy sort of way...), to hold my tongue, and to absolutely-not-cry-no-matter-what.

And yet, I've just returned from what was a remarkably uneventful meeting.  I kept waiting for a bombshell to drop, but they only went over my contract again with me. I had expected to be taking a pay cut at the very least, because my teaching hours have recently been less than those specified in the contract.  And yet, they explained to me that they will continue to honor the salary stated in my contract. (And that's way more than I deserve!)

They even said that they understood my sentiments expressed in that now infamously unrestrained email, and at times it seems like they were paraphrasing me directly. It was like: "We are aware that matters X and Y are our responsibilities, not yours, and so we should..." 

The entire production was only a silly formality, perhaps to smooth things over with me.  The Japanese love smooth.

I work with small kids a lot, so I'm all about positive and negative reinforcement when it comes to discipline.  And so it worries me to get all this positive reinforcement for what was essentially bad behavior on my behalf.

Still, I am not a child.  I've been a grownup for at least a year now (see cake in upper left hand corner), so I should be fully able to learn from this situation regardless, and show more restraint next time. 

Comments

[THW]

This reminds me of Office Space, where the main character revolts against his company and is oddly rewarded. Your life is mimicking a movie!

[Slutty McWhore]

You shouldn't worry too much about acting like a "bitch". I don't know what happened exactly, but it sounds like you just let some steam off. Maybe you could have been more "restrained" but, ach, what the fuck, we all say stuff we shouldn't have from time to time. Or, in my case, every single fucking day. Sigh.

[Melanie]

Weird! Maybe what you had said was right and hit home and they were just ignoring how you said it. Glad everything worked out for you.