Am I THAT Self-absorbed??

"Have you ever had a day," a tired-looking T asks me after arriving home last night, "when you can't stop thinking of all the stupid things you've ever said and done throughout your whole life?"

"That's every day!!" I look up at him smiling brightly, sarcastically.  As a general rule, alcoholics tend to be rather self-obsessed creatures.  And so, breaking the cycle of self-centered, circular thinking tends to be an important goal in recovery.

Since getting sober, I feel like I've been on a never-ending quest to Just Get Over Myself Already.  Which is why it's so funny, that according to my friend Kirkus below, my book is: "self-absorbed even by the standards of this genre..."

Haaa! Ha!

My friends and I got a really big laugh out of this specific turn of phrase.  I mean, to be considered self-absorbed even for a memoirist, you just can't get more self-saturated than that.

Of course my book is self-absorbed: it was written by a drunk 25-year-old, who, throughout the majority of the writing process, was still working nights.

I've been 27 for about a month now, and honestly, 27 feels so, so much older than 25.  (In a good way of course!) And yet, as my memoir is released to the public, it looks as if my self-absorbed-25-year-old-self will be frozen in time on its pages for, if not eternity, than certainly for a while.

Comments

[slightlytilted]

It's always good to be able to look back and see how much we've grown. ^_^ ~ however a lot more people are going to be able to see yours!~

[maitresse]

I don't know-- I'm not a drunk 25 year old but I've been called self-absorbed my fair share. My favorite is when people say I should take myself/everything less seriously. It reminds me of a favorite quote of Susan Sontag's-- "Imagine telling Shakespeare to relax" (Elias Canetti). Not that you, me, Sontag or Canetti are Shakespeares-- but the point is, we ::should:: take our ideas seriously. And the thing about memoir-writing is that the ideas are all yours, and are about your life. So don't listen to the haters. Just keep learning and reflecting about whatever you think is important.

[Manuel]

Congratulations. You can be very proud of yourself. You dont lack the strength that most alcoholics do